day 25

Things suck right now. My boyfriend and I pretty much broke up today. It's tough because when I met him, I thought we were perfect for each other. In a lot of ways, we are. I just grew and he did not.

I didn't think I'd ever be with any one else ever again.

It's so hard. I am more distraught over how poorly I treated him than anything else. He is so sweet and all I can focus on is what he's doing with his life. He has given me a lot of love that I've brushed aside.

I do not think the loss of his day to day company has set in much yet because this all came about a short while ago.

Oi.

Who knows what will happen.

Smoking more now than anything.